Hate it

I hate here...I'm tired of all these already, I don't want to stay here anymore, I regret why did I choose to come here, I regret why didn't I listen to Felicia.. I wish I could leave now, I missed the old days in Subang..

I miss home, I miss mummy daddy, I miss Shan and Wei, I miss Jo and Ju, I miss cell group, I miss church, I miss high school ministry, I miss choir, I miss everything in Subang...I hate Kampar...I hate here...really really hate here...If time can turn back, I would not choose here, I'll listen to Felicia, I'll stay, and all these won't happened...

I'm tired...God help me..One more semester to go...I don't know I can stand it a not..Final examination coming in few weeks time, did badly in mid-term, I don't want to fail in this sem...I don't want to retake to waste time and waste money...

God..Where are You? Are You far away from me? I'm scared...I want to listen from You.. What am I suppose to do? Am I experiencing the 'alone' like what Felicia said?? Am I suppose to break down before You so that I may be able to experience you again? God...I pray that you send someone here to guide me, to help me, to comfort me..