Day 33 without Chong Kah Weng

So.. today I went for another interview, assistant photographer, man, the pay is low. I couldn't take it. Both job also almost equal pay. How can I take them? Life is just so tough. I really don't want to go back Singapore and work. Because if I do so, our distance will be further.

Why am I always hurting myself? I shouldn't stalk you, but I did. And it turned my mood down. So badly. I'm so sad. I can't get you out of my brain. I wonder if you feel the same?

I really really miss you. I can't wait to talk to you again. I hope when I do, you don't push me away. And I hope this round you will be honest with your feeling, I know you still miss me and love me right? Deep down of you, I believe there is a space just for me right?

We are together for so long, we got used to each other, but I still love you. I know you do, you're just blinded by new feelings, I need to find ways to remind you how we fell in love with each other, and how we overcome all this together. Don't push me away ok?

I pray that everything will get better. I hope this year is not a worst birthday I ever encounter. God, bless me with a job, and also bring Kah Weng back to You. Touch him oh God, so he may turn his heart to You. I pray all this in Jesus name, Amen.