Day 14 without Chong Kah Weng

I'm better today. Cried out loud last night, complained to my sisters. Talked it out. Now I'm better. Just feeling angry, angry at why he did this to me. Angry at how stubborn he is. Angry at that Malay b*tch after knowing she is 3rd person but still insist to continue be 3rd person. Angry at him after meeting me, showed that he care and next day went dating with that f*cking b*tch.

I am very angry right now. I believe what happened to me will also happens to you b*tch. He cheated on me, one day he will cheat on you too! Yeah, enjoy your sweet moments now. Because I know, soon, he will leave you for another girl. Then you will know how painful and hurtful when this happens to me.

As for CKW, you have changed so much. You are not the person I first knew anymore. I shouldn't have go Singapore. I gave you too much freedom, cause you to changed so much. Turned into a person I don't recognise anymore.

I will forgive you for what you did to me. Because I have God's mercy with me. I pray that God will send angels and good friends to you to guide you back to Him. I pray that God will softens your heart and help you realise what you have done wrong. I pray that one day you come back to God, declare that you are Christian, son of God. So you will never go wrong anymore. I commit my prayer in Jesus most precious name I pray, Amen.

I believe for God's timing and planning. I will surrender everything unto His hand. And will not stalk and find you anymore. For I know if God allow this to happen, He surely has another plan for me/us. Amen.

I will start finding for classes to attend. To distract my negative feelings. To begin to change, I took up the courage to dye my hair. Change my look, change my mood. I kept away everything you gave me. Our photos, your letters, present for me. I'm gonna be okay without you. In fact, I will be better without you.