Day 16 without Chong Kah Weng

Today I went shopping with Wei. Bought 3 shirt which is not my usual style. From now on I'm gonna dress nicely go out, build back my confidence. I met up with my high school friends as well, Yinn Yih, Yee Leng and Jing Yu. We catch up, talked about what are we doing and stuff. Then I went Jing Yu house with Yinn Yih, we chit chat. I told them about us. Surprisingly I did not cry, I am very calm, it's like telling them somebody else's story.

I know I shouldn't stalk you, but I still can't help, I will pass by your house just to see if you are around, I don't know, if I see your car, I feel safe, at least I know you still there. It's like you never left before. Today I pass by your house twice, once is otw to Jing Yu house. Around 10.30, I know you might not back yet for badminton. So I left... 2nd time is when I otw home, I pass by again. I didn't see your car, did you went drinking? Or you moved out?

Please tell me you went drinking not move out... I really hope you don't leave your house. Your whatsapp last seen is 9.25pm. If I'm not wrong, you just finished your badminton. Then after that? Where have you been? Don't tell me you went to that girl's place to sleep. I really hope that is me thinking too much, I hope is me being sensitive.. Please don't move out.

You know what, I hope time can pass faster, so I could try to connect back with you. When I share this to YY and JY, they were saying could it be possible that you actually kena jampi.. I don't really believe in all these, but possible. I don't know, because you acted weirdly.

I miss you, what about you? Did you thought of me? I dreamt about you again, I wished I will never wake up from my dream.I really do not know what else I could do to win you back. I really hope we could start over again. But for now, this moment, I just hope you don't move out of ss18. If not, I really do not know where else I can find you. If you went disappear, it will only makes me more concern about you. Promise me, don't move out okay?

Father God, once again I commit Kah Weng unto Your hand, I pray that he will come back to You. Open his heart Lord, so he may be able to come back to You. I pray that you protect him from Devil's hand, give him a peaceful mind and clear thinking, so that he will realise, how important You are. Save him God. In Jesus most precious name I pray, Amen!